I'm a sheltered child who grew up in the dangerous, dangerous locale of Warm Springs District in Fremont, and spent most of her more formative years (i.e. middle school and high school, cuz srsly, those are the years I remember better anyways) in Whitey McWhite-People Suburbia.
In short, I didn't spend a lot of time in places with gang activity or frequent violence, and so I don't possess a realistic fear of guns, which allows me to view this fetish as if it were any other sort and, if not understand, then attempt to imagine along with the MC the sort of fantasy-fueled thoughts running through his head.
I dunno, I find Benjamin endearing, like watching a little boy with his first crush.
Also, pretty sure this whole gun thing is a big innuendo. Or could be. Gun is a traditional innuendo for penis, after all.
Like the scent of the power is the scent of semen, and the whole "You have
shot a gun before...?" line is like the "...you have
had sex before, right?" sort of line, and then the MC stammers about handjobs and awkward fumblings and then kind of goes "I mean, we orgasmed, right?"
But yeah, wow. As fantasies go, that was wow.