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...this confuses me. So...it's like tumblr...for books?

Either way, I'm mainly on Goodreads. I do occasionally come here, and also do periodically import my shelves from GR here, but GR is a more sure bet for contacting me.

I, Omega - Kari Gregg *sigh. I honestly thought it was going pretty well, too. Well, it was pretty good? Not great. By no means even near great. It was...solid, though, I think. The explorations into Gabe's identity confusion/crisis as a result of the bonding thing were interesting and semi-valid.And then...it...devolved. The "resolution" of the giant clusterfuck impasse that went on for literally 75% of the book was the "rape"-love thing I absolutely despise from old yaois - where the uke's technically forced into it against his will but through a system of conditioning is made to believe he really likes it (when it might just be physiological reactions). Of course, there needs to be a resolution, so this is where uke-power kicks in. Once a character becomes an uke, he will automatically start exuding uke-pheremones that no male can ever resist. Along the way, another character will come along and start attempting to force the uke, but of course he's more brutal than the seme. The stupid little uke's like "*sobs. my seme was never this mean/cruel/harsh with me. That means he actually cares very deeply about me and wants the absolute best for me all the time" and then the seme comes riding to the rescue.Actually, now that I think of it, this book seems like a novelization of those archetypal yaois.In application to this story, the resolution was weird. I still have no idea how Gabriel arrived at the conclusion that he's Cal's sub for life, heart, mind, soul, etc, w/e. It's like there are steps to the logic missing. Or maybe there's no logic at all and we were supposed to accept it at face value, but as a literary snob, I know that face value is a fallacy and thus cannot be trusted.Anyways, I enjoyed the first-ish bit more than I liked the last bit. Or the end. Or the projected future.ETA: I know what it is now. This book is like [b:What Worse Place Can I Beg in Your Love|4827407|What Worse Place Can I Beg in Your Love?|Syd McGinley|http://d.gr-assets.com/books/1222650520s/4827407.jpg|4892568] is pretending to be [b:Concubine|8822493|Concubine|Jill Knowles|http://d.gr-assets.com/books/1281414187s/8822493.jpg|13696837]. This is definitely dub-con (and maybe even non-con, since Gabe doesn't seem to be in his right mind throughout the entire book), but it also feels like the author's trying to work it out so that it seems like it's fully consensual. I'm okay with the dub-con/non-con stuff as long as it has definitive purpose within the plot and it doesn't attempt to justify itself as fully consensual. The fail-resolution where it appears Gabriel finally makes up his mind and definitely wants it didn't work for me because it rang of Stockholm and "well, he treats me well because he treats me better in comparison to these other guys," which I've said above bothers me. A lot. To me, what developed wasn't romance but a full-blown codependency that is masquerading as a romance. Sure, Cal's not a complete jack-ass and does to some degree care for Gabriel, but that doesn't make Gabriel any less codependent on Cal. And Cal doesn't do anything about that, but I think it's more that he never even considered it possible.Also, combine all of that with the annoying usage of excessive rhetorical questions and random bunches of fragment devolutions and shit, the overall work annoys me more than I initially thought :D